babymittens

Its hard to understand the dynamics of a relationship. What happens during the span of it that leads two people to a point where they no longer can be nice to each other. Sure, deep down, they love each other. You would think that having been so close and loving before, that having gone through so much together, would strengthen their bond. Perhaps the bond should even be unbreakable. Alas! That is not so. How do you think there are so many broken marriages around? Most people do start off loving each other to bits after all. But after one episode too many, one unbroken silence too many, one unresolved quarrel too many, how can it all just be expected to fade away with time? Not resolving anything and leaving it to time to heal sometimes just gives one result; an unresolved issue. Too many of those later, just tires one out. And when you are tired, there is nothing else you want. Nothing seems worth your efforts anymore. It takes too much to try, and its easier to walk away. Even having a conversation about what could be or has been serves no other purpose than to frustrate. Their relationship can best be described as civil. Which to her means the relationship is doomed.


The gap seems irreparable. A lot of things changed and it doesn't just go back to the way it was just because they want it to. She's so sick of so many things; life as it is, her as she is, things as they are. She's so sick and tired and suddenly her problems just seems bigger than everybody else's. Suddenly this whole world has expanded and she's so small and alone in all this mess.



She contradicts herself all the time. She contradicts everything. Sometimes things seem so right, seems so good. Sometimes things seem so bad, so wrong. Why is it that life is so hard sometimes? Why is it that you may have everything but feel so empty inside?