In a heartbeat

I was taking a smoke just now, when suddenly I thought of my life thus far. I was wondering what would life be without Kate? I mean, since I always had grouses giving up all my freedom and even part of my personality for her, how would I feel if I could make the choice to go back in time?


It was then that I truly realised what I wanted. Despite the frustrations and the mundane-ness I feel sometimes, I wouldn't change a thing. I really cannot imagine life without her; a morning without her little face peering at me & her wide grin when she sees me open my eyes, her cute little laughs and her sweet little voice, her loud cries and irritating whines, I cannot imagine a day without a kiss or hug from her. It would kill me to lose her. Even the thought of sending her to school and going back to work scares me. I would miss her so, so much!


And then I realised that what I read on someone's facebook shout-out before was true; only a life lived for others is worth living. (Or something along those lines) So what if I had lost part of who I am, so what if I had to give up my freedom and sometimes my sanity, *hur hur*, so what if I had to make certain sacrifices because I decided to have a kid? Because if you ask me would I make the same choice all over again, (even though sometimes I think myself mad for doing so), I would... in a heartbeat.