We.Miss.You

It's a weds night. The last three days I spent sleeping and working longer than usual.


It's been only four days since hubs left for Hong kong. Everything's as usual, of course. But underlying that all, I miss him dearly. I miss my partner in parenting. There's so much more to say, but sometimes things are better left unsaid. Just the day before, hubs hurt his toe... And I'm praying that it will heal completely so that he doesn't have to work in pain. For this training is important, yet so is his well-being. He can't afford to take medical leave and rest when that is what he needs right now... But I trust that all will be well and he will be able to focus completely with no pain nor swelling.


Kate's on her second week at school. Actually had tons to write about it...But for the moment, that has to wait. At the back of my mind, I'm worried as to how she is adjusting at school. But so far she seems to be enjoying it, though she's having trouble napping there. I hate the nagging thought that I'm just leaving my daughter to others. But I know for a fact that's not my plan nor objective.


The other night when hubs called, Kate spoke to him and while sobbing, (because she was throwing a tantrum then) she said to daddy; "Daddy, please come back..." That. That sentance, uttered with so much yearning in her tiny voice, broke our hearts so completely for the second time in our lives since we had her. The first being when she shoved jelly into her mouth during that painful hand, foot and mouth disease period. Both of us admitted to each other how we nearly cried when we heard her say that. It was a heartbreaking, and yet heartwarming moment. Kate loves and misses daddy, even when she's so young.


It hurts a little to have to stay apart like this. But it will pass soon... Of course for Kate, hubs and me, soon is never soon enough...


Missing you. Every waking moment. Even when I try to occupy myself.