babymittens

Warning; Whiny post.


I am definately not a likable person. I have different opinions and beliefs, and stand firmly by them. Unless you have scientific proof that I am wrong, I most probably will be rather stubborn about certain things. I always wear my heart on my sleeve, so you can always read from my face what I am feeling that day. I just can't really live my life any other way. Dad says that is where I lose out to others. I have an inability to be sweet and fake, because I don't want others to be fake to me either - it makes me sick when I see through an act.


I know I am not accepted and I don't blame anyone. All my life, I never really fit into anywhere nicely so I am actually cool with that. But... the disparity between the two groups is so huge I just can't ignore it. I wish I could rise above it all, and not do the same back to you. Its hard though. I wished that the people who are supposed to be on my side can stand up for me. But I know that it won't happen as it's just out-of-their-character. Me? I would rather be frank about how I feel and trash it out. But its ok. At the point where I needed your support and understanding most, I didn't get it. So I will never, NEVER expect it from you OR your kind anymore. I won't. I know my place and where I stand, and believe me, I don't need charity nor do I need ANYTHING from you. I have all I need here. Even if I don't, I will work it out on my own. Because I know I was never, ever accepted. And never will be.


*I won't work towards getting accepted either. Either you like me or you don't. Life's too short to try to please everyone. And too short to be hurt or upset by you for much longer.