babymittens

Recently I have been feeling really bored. Not sure why either. Been barking alot at Kate too.


On friday, even though no one could meet us, I decided to bring her shopping alone. She has been getting up at 4am,sleeping at 6am, and getting up again at 2pm the previous couple of days. So I refused to let her take her nap that day. I brought her to Jurong Point even though I didn't really feel like it, nor did I have anything to buy other than her ABC flash cards. To my surprise, she was so co-operative, I managed to shop in peace with her for company! I bought 2 tops, a sketchbook for my designs, some jewelry findings and I had a great time just going into every shop looking at stuff. I have never really shopped alone with her before, only before we meet my friends or hubs so I am quite sure that was a first. And it was great. Even though it ended not so well... Because it was friday night and it had been raining non-stop, everyone was waiting for a cab. I have never seen the taxi queue so long before at JP. So I decided to call a cab, but Comfort gave me a non-tone when I called in. And SMRT put me on hold for really long. Desperate, I called dad to ask him to call Comfort for me. After a long half-hour, still no cab. I didn't think of the train til then, so I told Kate that we were gonna take the train and that she had to be good.


And she was! It's not her first time, but I'm usually very apprehensive about taking the train alone with her and the stroller. If she acts up, I don't know how I am gonna carry her and the stroller. On the long walk back to my house, she was also very obedient and sat inside her stroller with the canopy opened overhead. I told her I couldn't carry her and push the stroller - I didn't have the strength so she has to sit and be good. I also told her that it was raining and she had to be good and hide inside her stroller so she won't get wet and she did all of it. I can't tell you how pleased I was with her that day.


She's been trying to string words together recently and whenever she manages to, it makes us all sit up and listen to her. That day she managed to say "I don't want the car!" in her playpen and hubs and I laughed and laughed so hard.


Anyway, I have been thinking about Stella recently. I keep thinking about how she is pregnant and perhaps she would love more company and more supportive people around. But... I wished I could be there for her like she was for me during my pregnancy and even in the first year after Kate was born. No matter how I tell myself that perhaps a friendship like ours isn't worth keeping since it was so easy for us to just break it up in the first place. But no matter how I try, and even after a long time of not thinking about it, it still comes back to me. The wondering how she is, if everything is going right for her. And I hate that. To be frank, I think friends should accept each other as they are, flaws and everything. Even at this point, I know deep down no matter what harsh words were exchanged or said, she will always be my friend. That if she were to open up again, I would too. I don't know why, but honestly she was there more than anybody else and she understood everything. Yea, I miss her.


Thank God for the other people in my life that keeps me sane. Sometimes I wonder what I would do without my other great friends who make an effort to visit me and meet up despite their busy schedules. I suddenly feel like crying again.