Anyway, I have been thinking bout putting Kate in a childcare centre. After settling her, I'll be on the search for a full-time job. It's been quite an abrupt change of plans. I actually intended to do part-time, and even thought of staying home a little longer. Many plans actually, but changed them all. A few reasons for doing so. The main one; for my dad & my home. Dad has already retired but signed a one year contract with his company. But his job is getting harder & more tiring. He didn't say anything but I can see. His contract is ending in october, so Kate will be placed in a childcare around that time. Our new home will be completed in 2012, & I am a little worried bout the renovation cost and furnishings. So I really wanna get back to work. I just went on careers.marinabaysands.com and I'm quite excited because I think there are a few suitable positions for me. Mainly customer care related. I don't dare apply yet, since I don't know when I can start. But at least I'm motivated. I don't know if I should get shift work, in the tourism line, its mainly that. But I'm worried for Kate. So... Never mind. Come september, I'm sure things will work out, by God's grace. =)
The other night, hubs and I talked before we went to bed, and it felt really nice since its been forever since we did that. Sure, we talk. But I think that talk was a meaningful one. It felt nice to feel like a couple once again. We were talking bout how our other friends with kids get to go out on dates and even holidays without baby. And that led to me telling him I know he also sacrificed alot for us. We both have not been out on dates for the past year, & he hasn't gone out with his friends in a long time. And that night, he revealed why; because he didn't want me to feel even worse to be home alone with Kate while he's out having fun. I thought that was awfully sweet. Honestly I feel that both hubs and I have come such a long way. And in the past, we both sacrificed alot for each other. Now we sacrifice for our little one. I used to doubt that the distance between us will ever be healed. But after that night, I believe that it will be, once we have more time to ourselves, when Kate is older. And it's something I'm looking forward to. For now, I'll accept us the way we are. I remember hubs sister telling us that when a couple has a kid, people around should be looking at how they both treat their kid, and not how they treat each other anymore, as having a kid changes everything. That really helped put alot in perspective for me. I didn't feel that bad bout us after that.
Here's Kate saying "Cheese!" for the camera...
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