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I am so head over heels in love with this song..."Down" by Jason Walker. Love the version that features Molly Reed in it. I first heard it in the series "The Vampire Diaries" which was introduced to me by Des, my brother. Hubs & I are so in love with the series! Watch it - the first two episodes are a bit draggy but after that the plot's so compelling, you find yourself so immersed in it! I think that this is way better than Twilight, but if I am not wrong, the series is abit different from the book.


Anyway...I'm not too sure why I love the song but somehow I can relate to the lyrics. I just feel...this emptiness inside me. It's like I'm...incomplete. Don't wanna elaborate on that too much. Anyway, I'm not sure why I feel that way.


Kate the little monster, has finally recovered from a week's fever. The worst she's ever had. I have such a great thing to share bout God's love for us though. After I brought Kate to the doctor, she got better for a day. But the very next day, she was feverish again. This time, her fever was 38plus the whole day. 38plus degrees wasn't exactly high, but I was a little anxious since it didn't come down despite her taking the fever medicine. So I asked Yvonne if I should go to the hospital since no kid's clinic was open on a sunday night. She told me to get it checked out so immediately I prepared to go. Before I left, I checked Kate's temperature once again, 38.4 degrees. Dad didn't want me to go though, he asked me if it was necessary, which kinda made me feel a little silly & a little mad at him. Could I be overreacting? Dad then suggested that we went to a normal clinic first, so I called hubs to ask his opinion. Hubs decided that we should just bring her to the hospital since that clinic gave us the inappropriate age group medicine before(They gave Kate medicine that should not be taken for her age). Mom followed me & hubs met us there after work. When there, the nurse measured her temperature & I didn't notice the reading. But I saw on Kate's form later that it read 39.9degrees. Mom & I were suprised and I thought they made a mistake.


When we saw the doc, she gave us another dose of fever medicine to bring Kate's fever down, & told us Kate had to take a blood test & x-ray. At that point, mom told me that dad didn't want us to bring Kate to hospital as he was afraid that the doctors might make her go take all kinds of test etc, & I felt better. I thought he was just thinking that I was overreacting - instead, he was worried for Kate. & at that point, when I knew she had to go through an x-ray & all, I was also a little mad at myself. I was thinking if I made the right decision. I didn't want to expose Kate to the harmful radiations of the x-ray. While we were waiting for the results, I kept feeling terrible. But soon, the doc saw us again & this time, Kate's temperature read 38plus still. So the doc recommended that we give Kate another med, a different one, & we were to stay til her fever goes away. Everything was cleared but her fever was not gone yet, despite the medicine. So we stayed & after another hour, finally Kate's fever went down. Off we went, headed for home.


The next morning, I took Kate's temperature. It was normal, but I felt that Kate was a bit hot to the touch. Puzzled, I sat there thinking. Suddenly, I remembered that a few months ago, my themometer had displayed the low battery sign. I leaped up, changed the batteries & re-took her temperature. This time, it indicated 38 degrees. Then it hit me -- all this while, her temperature was alot higher than it read on the thermometer! I was careless & did not read the instructions manual properly. When the battery is low & does not read temperature properly, it will display an icon, which I failed to recognise since I didn't read the manual. *Hits palm on forehead!*


I couldn't help but be in awe, at His apparent love for her... I usually don't make a big deal out of her 38plus fever, since I know children's fever are usually high. Hubs don't usually make a decision, he always leaves it to me. And that day, God worked in His own wondrous ways & got us to bring her to the hospital. It scares me to think how high her fever actually was. That whole day she was hot & clingy to me, her eyes were teary & she got up a few times in her sleep to talk to me which doesn't happen. She usually gets up & say "Hi!" then go back to sleep -- she doesn't get up to talk rubbish. I guess it was the high fever. And I'm so thankful to God. =)


I remembered just the week before Kate was so sick, there was one night when hubs & I decided to stay another night at his mom's place, which was not our usual practice. The next morning, my mom-in-law told us she couldn't breathe properly the whole night, so we brought her straight to the hospital. I was so glad then, at the way He works. These two incidents has re-affirmed His love for me & the people around me, & though I know I have not been to church in a long time, nor do I behave in the best way that I should, it lifts my heart to know that He's still there for me. I know to the non-christians, this will sound weird, & to the christians, it may sound like I'm a hypocrite or something, I don't know. I guess it doesn't really matter though, does it? As long as I am aware of what He has done for me & my family.


*God's ways are not ours, we just have to trust him!*