The one with the pining & the decision

In Batam, Fanni & I was talking & the topic of Stella & me came up. I was actually comtemplating sending her a xmas pressie & see how things go. Thought maybe we could just move on from there.


Last night I got to thinking about all my friends & how we met & all the past friends I had.


So today I msged Stella. & til now she hasn't replied. Which is clear. Not that her actions weren't clear before. I guessed I just miss all that we had. But there is only so much I will do, because I feel that it shouldn't be hard. & I have my pride too. So...if she doesn't wanna talk, fine. Don't wanna be friends, fine. It's gonna be alright. Its so silly & hurting & enough's enough. Truely, it's over.